distance (writings)

Unrest we've wasted too much time thinking non-sense explanation of our madness. The weaker we get, delusion of happiness, unconventional ways we become obsolete in our own failures, so expendable. Like Sacrificial lambs we fall and sink in this quicksand so fast. Dreams of selfishness, my desire, unwanted for this life was needed a heart to beat. The numbness as I sleep as dead, the absence felt so slow I fall forever from this dream. The chance to see the happiness I left behind. I wanted to scream, so loud it deafens for anyone to hear, seem silence was the ending I’ve been waiting, so fool to wait for nothing. It stops me from believing for good, but a gentle smile has once again sprouted. So sudden caught in the distance far more things to see, a hope to wait and believe.a.i.b

existing shadow (writings)

If all fails in the end will I ever give my heart away? Up to these last dark days I wonder. A suicidal melodrama scene seated and watches how our story plays. A random injection of emotions as it circles every seconds and induce our heart of pain and sorrow. It’s all just for plain play of life to come and juggle the reasons, catching the right decision and letting go of the rest broken. It happens and its the end, forced ourselves to a blind reality which will never comfort or even soothes this pain. This may have been your dark days but even night hides away. Light never failed to shine upon us. They say shadow exist because light shine behind, a hope. As we get closer the pain fades away. a.i.b

her face (writings)

I could almost hold her hands and wrap it around me. Sitting beside w/ her feels I’d never want to move away, every moment’s a limelight I had to enjoy overtime. The smile she wear blossom on the midnight sky, unexpectedly for she may not see me nor have her eyes. By just looking at her gentle face makes everything so perfect and never cared for tomorrow was the best there is to know. Pictures that remain inside my mind, such days were time stops for a moment I felt the joy to love every second I breathe. All I ever cared was to know everything that makes her so special, so pretty to be inspired by the face. To hide the idle eyes she see's the true meaning of her face, a touch from my hand was a feeling of sickness, coldness it give in I submit to temptation one more time. Eager heart fades away from the happiness she spread so quick, I thank you for the smile so hard you gave. a.i.b.

Reasons (writings)

I live to see the things that worth waiting, sleepless night I sometimes ask myself, why can’t people be with those person whom they love so much and end up losing that someone? Every time I see her was a question of emotions and feelings. Destiny is not the bases of holding on to something, to wait and believe, controlled by these words it breaks other people dreams. It hurts to see them leave you in the open like a child expecting for someone to hold his/her hand tightly, a warm hand of care. Calling out his/her name as you remember the times you needed them the most, times that had left a mark in our hearts. But I miss the days I smile and laugh the faces that remind us that life can be a never ending puzzle that you try to build. Say to me some good words, enough to fool ourselves from reality. Life’s a dull word without pain and agony; pair with death then can only be called life in its purest state. There’s no reason to feel afraid for being alone, you’re not alone when you were born. Why torture these moments? Sun shine to resolve the fact that life moves and ends in a way we ever wanted. To control is a very unforgiving task, not bothered by emotions. These days was a blessing for I’ve found a simple yet fulfilling reason why we should stand and think twice to what we’ve missed. I didn’t see a glimpse of life outside other than her. The chance to speak and say that I’m feeling better now. a.i.b

Surreal Life (writings)

I've been living in a world so unfair that it had taken a portion of happiness in my life. Even if they have been taken away and forgotten me I'm still hoping to fix everything to make those times comeback and be able return just like before. It pushes me to live longer to see and wait for that time to come. The reason why life's a continuing process, giving up can never be my slogan, I have to stand up. As I promised, I'll continue living to see them all succeed their dreams. It may not like the old times but I'll always be the one ready to help and say hold on to what's worth holding on. Hoping for reply, a hi of some sort. Silly and a fool I am to wait for something that’s never gonna happen. Though I expect these things, that look was too hard to give, a simple glance so impossible. Despite everything I'm still happy for what happen it taught me to cherish life at it's fullest and we can never dictate the possibilities alike. True happiness start with a small simple smile in our heart, realizing it can bring contentment inside and laughter outside. People come and go at their own will, whether we like it or not we have to endure the pain for our loved ones that have left us. All of this maybe foolish enough to call us martyr for endlessly hoping for a better result. a.i.b