darky night (writings)

This night, it started with a question. Am I that less fortunate? Over and over I can see the flashback, a place where I was before. Same old songs, as fear stab my heart in this very night. I wander in dreams flying with the stars bright as your eyes. What if I’ve chosen a different perspective in life, will I be able to reach the heavens and touched the clouds just as the story would always play when I was young? Maybe not, we all have our share of good and bad days. It may not fall in our ways, yet willingly we search for that something. It may be someone or something besides you. We wait until days would turn grey, darkens heavens fall I wanted to cry or even shout for the skies to feel the pain inside of me. I kept seeing myself drenched and drowned in a pond of mud. Useless self existence, I feel helpless. Here I am again in this same old page. The world was never meant for my kind, life’s not equal. There would always be pain and anger that feed me to become numb, to see that everything that surrounds us would be the ones to hurt us. After all life’s not a fair game. But I remember you stared at me with your eyes closed. a.i.b

A New Beginning (writings)

I’ll shed my tears on you forever and guided me with your gentle sweet voice. You’ve appeared at the right moment with uncertainties and doubts, though I fear the pain to comeback and haunt me again in my sleep. I must hug the pain to feel again, a choice that I’ve wanted to do ever since. I thank you for the gift of smile for that single day that we’ve been together. A single drop of dew is enough to fill the bottomless heart I carry. You’ve been the brightest star among the rest and the cold breeze you’ve brought freeze my heart even time stop to gaze the subtle heart yet forgiving. With so little time that I even ran out of words. But I enjoyed watching you with those sleepy eyes that it makes you a bit more interesting and knowing you much better. I’ll forever longed, embrace, and cherish that moment. Though this may be a bit too much I can’t blame myself to what I feel for you. It may take days, months and years; I’ll wait for that day to be seen and heard to what my hearts say. So I’ve push my life to live from seeing the moment though with less expectations of goodness it doesn’t matter anyway, I’ve already promised and the end.a.i.b